As I was writing another blog post I had to stop in my tracks and start this one. I have something I want to talk about…
I love social media. These days I’m more of a “creeper” and looking at what everyone else is posting. I sometimes join in conversations but most the time I just read, think to myself of a comment I’d post and keep scrolling. Guys, I am a very talkative person. Like really talkative. I love good conversations with people. I look back on my social media posts and I feel like I do not come across the person I really am.
I was driving down the road on the way to pick up groceries from Kroger (Thank you Clicklist!) and wanted to post a few pictures of Riley to Facebook and Instagram. After a few minutes about what captions I wanted to added to them I stopped and closed the apps. I noticed I tend to do this a lot. But Why? Well I finally was able to pin point why, and it’s really quite sad. I’m embarrassed to even bring it up but I’m hoping it will help me break the wall down and just stop being so reserved.
So I have this family member, Let’s say her name is Susan. Susan and I have had a rough relationship for quite some time. We disagree with a lot of things, we cannot see each other in person and when I do see this person they totally give me a panic attack. Susan gets under my skin so bad and makes me very angry I cannot have a healthy relationship with this person but I’m also glad I do not because I really don’t need that negativity in my life. Well Susan likes to snoop on my social media accounts. I am warned by family members to watch what I post online because Susan will get upset. I do not want to upset the family so I keep my mouth shut, post generic posts or only business like posts on my website to keep everyone happy. But IIIIIIIIIIII am not happy. I hate that I have to hide or feel like I’m holding back of what is going on with my life because if Susan catches wind of it then she is going to make my family members life a living hell by gossiping with the new information she has found out.
I know many of you are thinking why do you care what Susan thinks? Who cares if she gossips? Because Susan can be right out nasty and people do not stand up to Susan. She takes it out on someone in my family I care about so so much and I do not want to lose a relationship with. But I am TIRED of not sharing about my life with everyone. I hear it all the time people are asking what is new with me, hows Riley, hows Sean, how’s business? And want to talk about it all but there is never enough time. I want to use my platforms just like many of my friends and fellow business owners to share our lives, good and bad. I’m just so tired of being paranoid and scared to post things online because they could be used against me or my family. How is it fair to live a life in fear? It’s not and I’m tired of the bullying! I’m sick of worrying of being judged by certain people when all I want to do is spread joy, happiness and love.
I need that support to know this is okay to do this and that there is nothing wrong with sharing our lives with our fans who enjoy following our family. Everyone always wants to know the latest on what’s going on and I want to share more of those moments. Many of the blogs and social media accounts I follow, I follow for the stories of people and their families. It’s something about reading personal stories that inspire me to keep going for my own dreams. Maybe one day my story can inspire someone and they say “because of you I followed my dreams” or “you inspired me”.
Ahhh… To start the year off more of with getting THAT BIG BURDON off my chest! WOOOOOO!!!! Let’s dig into 2018 with Happiness and spreading joy y’all!
Note: I apologize for the running sentences and some the post not making sense. I did not re-read through the post because I know if I did I’d never post this. I promise future posts will be better 😉